OMG 10000% YES!!!
FAIR WARNING I’M HORRIBLE AT EXPLAINING THINGS! So please bare with me!
So I’ve been in therapy for a while, my longest runtime is with my current therapist and we’ve been working together for about 2yrs. In my 2yrs the biggest thing that my Brain and I have been working on and learning about is Structure!
So far in my learning experiences I’ve been learning how to just be patient with myself (Something that is extremely hard for me to do). Prime example, on my latest list of tasks I actually told myself “This is just a list of stuff that needs to be done, but it’s oki if it’s not completed today! Do what you can and finish the rest later!” I gave myself until the end of the day and I completed quite a bit, and still have quite a bit to do. Despite that, at the end of the day I felt great cause completed something.
I don’t like planners, if there’s a proper way to use one then I’ve never learned how! I’m currently using one, but instead conforming to my tools, I’m having my tools conform to me! So, I’m giving it yet another go after idk how many years! This time I’ve been using it more so as a notebook rather than a planner. I mark my payday, and then list the bills that I know need to be paid right off the top of my head. I look up the ones I can’t remember, and see if they are in this current pay cycle or the next! I use my txts with my therapist to keep track of the days we scheduled to meet and I write them in the planner. I use that to basically bookkeep, let’s me know which sessions I have and haven’t paid for. Sooo I’ve been pulling from all corners of my organized chaos and have putting it into my planner allowing me to get better usage rather than hating them lol!
*SideNote* : Someone will probably be like use your phone and I’ll be like you’re right… I do.. but I’m also a lyricist so paper and several mechanical pencils or a Gel 2 pen and stack on stacks of colorful sticky notes and Black fine tip sharpie pens are what I live for! My brain is way to fast for my fingers and voice txt is to slow for my brain I have my own short hand (I don’t always spell everything out or how I say or write it is how I intended it to be)!!
Anywho….I feel better after tellin or updatin my therapist about stuff like this, and her tellin me that I am following a structure and I’m keepin myself busy in line and focused! To me it still feels like I’m unorganized and like I’m not upholding or following a structure, but that’s because my definition of structure is waaay different than someone else’s! She’s able to see and hear what I can’t!
While this might sound great I still struggle more than I’ll admit, but at the same time I have gotten better! I hope that my rambling helps a little bit! ☺️