Having hobbies is hard

It’s SO hard 😭 “I WANT to do these fun things, but if I do, then time will go by too fast and I won’t be able to do OTHER fun things!? I wanna work on this hobby, but is that really the best way to utilize my time? Is it even what I really want to do the MOST? Oh look, it’s already bedtime! 🤷‍♀️”

My god yes! It feels like the first step is the hardest step to take. I’ve been wanting to a bunch lately but I always say I’m going to sit down a decide what I want to do first, but the over-complicating wards me off.

Yah, sometimes, I feel like my hobbies become my actual work, and this makes me scared. Now I’m hyper focused on my music project while it’s already 2:28 am and my partner has been trying to fall asleep. Though, as I have those hyper focuses without a border for everyone (like headphones for me), I seriously worry that I overwhelmed those people who are around me with what I do now, no matter how much I need it to do now… Secondly, there are too much unfinished stuff that makes me feel really guilty about it! Knitting, music of different genres, handmade stickers, appropriate graffiti sketch to make it real later, some nail art ideas, then, cooking ideas, and this all comes with me who forgot to have a shower in time and looks like a crazy scientist 🤪 so the only thing I have to do is just work and work, and barely have the time for hobbies - so I make my current experience special

Hobbies are meant to bring accomplishment and joy, maybe you've started from the hard theoretical things trying to do it in the "right way". If it's too hard, just start from the simplest things. I tried to write a track in FL studio recently after wanting to do it for.. 10years? I waited until the right moment. But then I saw some samples and with samples, it was easy peezy. Hehehe