I hate how I have something to do, I want to do, I feel myself wanting to do it, and then I just can't. It's like I am getting ready for a road trip with all my tasks completed but no gas in the car. Just me sitting in the car with my itenerary, food, and no gas to move forward. I feel bad about not doing it. My family scolds me saying "you're just lazy" "see, you didn't really want to do it anyway". Those phrases make me feel worse. They make me feel like I am letting myself and them down by not doing the task. When I finally do the task, that only took a fee minutes, I don't feel any better. I feel worse because I procrastinated. I want to scream, I want to cry. I want to turn back time and coach myself to do the task so I don't waste my opportunities.