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My walls have walls ... with a moat and piranhas. So yeah, a bit.

Hella

Definitely. Just afraid that everything goes another way, different from the one I see, and they all are just kidding me. After a case when I had to go to another town (the war had just started, so me and my sis had to help with friend’s pets transition) and my bf all of the sudden accused me of that and started living with someone else, I got worse with my trust in general, even though we worked out the whole situation and now we’re together without any issues for what I pray every day. I am afraid of being betrayed and pushed out of the community which is still not as friendly as it is towards my bf. I learn how to trust myself, but it’s also really hard while the closest people are telling me mean things in regards to my atypical mindset and everyday struggle with putting myself into working hustle. If it’s not important as much as I feel, why it’s so hurtful then? But while they’re feeling down, I always cheer them up and try to hear all of their concerns. I learn quitting expectations, that’s a great work and even greater superpower, but it also exhausts af.

Yes, I have abandonment issues from my father. I see how it affects my life. I have trust issues too, and betrayals from close friends- it’s closed me off to attempt to make new friends. My friends are pets and plants lately