I'm a people pleaser. Im terrified of being alone so i will tell you what you want to hear to avoid conflict about certain things. I cry when I get yelled at but can be ruthlessly vicious and purposefully say things that I know will hurt (especially if you go there first). I have a huge heart but also a heart of stone. I fucked up my relationship because I lied to my boyfriend about doing something that I didn't actually do, because for some stupid reason i thought it would be the easiest way for him to move past it but it had the exact opposite effect and I hate myself for it. Idk if this is adhd related but my unregulated emotions certainly are. Anyways. Needed to get that off my chest. Thanks for coming to my ted talk.